December 2011
5 posts
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Dear God
It’s me again.
I am tired of being a fuck up.
I am tired of being insecure.
Insecure to the point that I’m pushing people away because they can’t handle me anymore.
I always know people leave because of it….yet it comes back again and again.
Just…please….
Something…
Anything…
Make me less of a fuck up.
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Dear God
It’s me again.
She’s gonna be pissy today.
And it’s only 2 days until we see each other.
I understand something happened today, but…
I don’t mind that much when she gets pissed at for no reason - because I know I can handle it.
But when she’s upset over him? It gets me so jealous…..
But I bet she’s the same way I am when it comes to /my/ him.
...
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Dear God
it’s me again.
Why am I never good enough?
I don’t even want to elaborate now.
Just….why am I never good enough?
Dear God,
It’s me again.
She was..an amazing person.
And she meant so much to me.
She was like a second mother.
Just..take care of her up there.
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Dear God
It’s me again.
So. It’s been a while.
I finished like 4 homeworks today. Just need to type them up.
Holed myself up in the library for 4 hours doing them.
But my girlfriend got mad at me and now she says she’s busy and won’t talk to me.
YAY.
This is why my homework hasn’t been getting done. I’ve been talking to her.
She has seperation anxiety even though...
November 2011
8 posts
Dear God,
It’s me again.
She’s in the hospital.
Lung disease.
Please help her.
I know I’m not the greatest person in the world, and I don’t deserve much.
But I can’t lose her.
She’s like a second mom to me. She’s my godmother and I love her too much to lose her.
And the worst part is..I don’t think she knows this.
I’m not the greatest at...
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Dear God
It’s me again.
Why do I have such low self esteem?
I feel so worthless. Useless. Like I don’t deserve any of the good things that come my way.
But then I whine about all the bad things that happen/happened to me.
What a hypocrite I am!
I am a hypocrite, but yet that’s what I hate the most. Hypocrites.
I hate liars, yet I lie about how hurt I am.
Look at me, I’m miss...
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Dear God
It’s me again.
I never seem to get close to what I really want, do I?
It’s like every time /some/ obstacle that’s impossible to pass comes up.
And no matter how much hope I ever have to pass it, no matter how hard I try?
I can’t.
I just can’t.
There’s only one thing that can cure my lonliness….make me happy.
I can’t even have it.
What is...
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Dear God
It’s me again
I miss not being lonely.
Over the years I’ve opened up a lot more than I should have.
I’ve been hurt.
I still have friends…but I feel lonely.
In middle school I was never lonely.
I think it was after the Nick situation, almost losing my other best friend right after that…
What happened with Amy…
It’s also not being near Cj. You know,...
Dear God,
It’s me again.
I love my friends. I really do.
But sometimes, no. Most of the time, I feel like I’m all alone,
No one’s ever there for me to rant to.
I always have to listen to them or cheer them up,
Or, they just don’t care all that much.
Sometimes I wish my life was like Friends.
No matter how much they mock each other, they’re always there for each...
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Dear God,
It’s me again.
I can’t seem to find the will to do my homework. Even though I owe tons.
Why do I not have the willpower to do it anymore…?
I was so good junior year.
I don’t want to mess up my chances for college just because I can’t do homework…
what is wrong with me?
I can’t seem to do more than eat, sleep, internet, and talk on the phone with Cj.
...
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Dear God,
It’s me again.
Why doesn’t dad show that he cares about me….?
He shows he cares for my brothers, and my aunt and uncle and my cousins….
But never my mother and me.
He’ll never so much as glance away from the TV when I try to talk to him seriously.
Then he’ll pretend like he cares about trivial things.
He’ll complain about his pain, and never give a...
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What this blog is about
Okay, so honestly this is just going to be a rant blog for myself. All the posts will start out with “Dear God, it’s me again.” To be perfectly honest, I don’t believe in God. But it just helps to pretend that someone’s there to listen sometimes.
So if you acutally follow this blog, for some strange reason….it’s just rants.